poetry and ideas
REMORSE OF A SAINT
shades of melted red discolor her cosmetic eyes,
smeared by the cries of a thousand promises
all turned out to be empty lies
all we ever knew of her was that dangerouse charm,
that subtle wink in your direction,
that half hidden smile
just half hidden perfection
All the power in the world was in buried in her heart
according to me
then again you can see an example of the effect she had
just look at all my explosive emotions
just take one look at me
LAZARIS IN LOVE
how does it feel to win?
I ask only because I know youve never been on top before
youve never felt the taste of victory until the other day
when you tore me
from head to toe
and all with your poison tounge
How was the taste of my blood on the curve of your lip?
my agony seemed only to make it that much sweeter
but the funny thing about that was you didnt slash deep enough
your tounge is forked only at the tip
sharpened by sensuality
I was still alive inside
barely breathing
but alive
As the days pass Ive grown stronger
im no longer the vulnerable fuck you took me for
I admit that I was (a vulnerable fuck) just like you were a whore
and every single time that you fed me dreams of a perfect reality
a paradise with only you and me
I begged for more
but now that its all over and I write my hopes, dreams and fears down in this notebook with a pen
I only pray that it will never happen again
All The Beauty in the World, Embodied in One Girl, Does Not Make Her a Perfect Ten
MISINTERPERUTED AS COMPLIMENTS
It is true
Everything kind I have done for you has once again been ignored for weakness
All hesitant " I love you's", mistaken goodbyes
those good times that we wasted, were all just a lie
while the last things that I tasted, where your pouting lips
the memory that I miss the most was entertaning the thought that you would be mine someday.
But its all over now
Its all dead and gone
well so long and thanks for all the empty promises
and I gave my love as collateral but you took it and ran
correction
thats what hurt the most
XOXO (old letter i found that never had any intention of being delivered)
I would tell you the words Ive been wanting you to hear if only I knew that I had the courage to do so, but you make it so difficult every single time that you smile or connect your eyes with mine. It hurts so much to experience all these euphoric dreams of having your formerly forbidden lips pressed against mine, and then only to awake in a cold sweat, laughing at the idea that something so wonderful would ever happen. It burns a hole in my heart every time I search for your smile, see it, then feel you rush by me to accompany that smile with a kiss, delivered to another. -NB
MY EYES SPLINTER, YOUR EYES TIMBER
Werent you the one who told me I would fail?
didnt you speak those words that made my own love seem so stale?
you did it
hypocrit
thats all you ever were
You could never settle with tearing yourself down
you always had to drag me along
and when the sound of your voice makes my heart start to pound
just remember
without me and my flaws, all attentions on you
so dont ever close your mouth
because the day that you do
you may expose what is true
you may expose yourself
and the pain you feel
that is given to me
HUMAN BEHAVIOR
Human behavior
just endager the stranger that threatens your heart
endanger the person that can tear you apart
without the regret that you could be wrong
you could be so fucking wrong
but dont let your heart dwell on that thought
at least not for to long
it was only someone elses love that you fought
just to protect your own interests
human behavior
you are your own savior
human behavior
dont ever trust another
you could loose it all
and its all for your human behavior
for your selfish needs we could all burn in hell
while you watch from your thrown, its my soul that youll sell
it was never your own
thats why my love was thrown away so cheaply
Never trust a stranger
human behavior
PHILOS(OFME)
Wake
A New sun has errupted
corrupted with love,
scream to just interuppt it
Afraid of the new day,
insane with what she might say,
in pain with the only cure being in the form of another,
could I possibly trust her as a lover?
Yes
but for the sake of conversacion.....
the consequences of that possible mistake seal the direction of my fate
But it may already be to late
because I may already love you
I know the meaning of life
Happiness
I know the definition of a wife
completion
I know the thing that every man searches for in one way or another, in the bottom of a bottle or in multiple lovers, in those long lonely nights when you wish you could smother
your own breath from you body
because it only reminded you that theres no one there to share it with
I know the meaning of life
Its in the love of another
And when you lay down on your bed
And wonder if what you had said
was the right thing
just remember
Souls where made in two
youll find your match
and so will I
sleep
LOYALTY SNAPS
whats gonna happen when I fall out of their favor?
Just like taste in their mouth, I just may lose my flavor
are you just gonna cave or still call me a friend?
can I still call you brave or will that be the end?
Are you gonna fuck up and rip up everything that we had?
will the good love we had suddenly just go bad?
Will you settle for less?
will you give up the best?
just the stress from this bullshit,
this political mess
will make all my pity grow less,
enlarge anger in my chest
You turned on me,
now your done
no more games
no more fun
no more lies
no more chat
ill stab you in the front
cause you stabbed me in the back
Dont try to search for things to say
just to explain why its this way
just say your thoughts right to me face
And if you run ill just give chase
to bash your face, making you choke down your words
and just in case you think im lying,
you should erase your thoughts of trying to play your two faced game,
Just dont let me ever hear of you disrespecting my worthy name
because those that treat me like a brother,
and then go talk shit about me to another
I will smother sooner or later,
so run for cover
And while reaping what you sow you should know that the worst enemys were always once friends
and the violence that follows is the sound of loyalty smashing
I have so much love to bring to those willing to embrace the trust it comes with.
but the other side of the spectrum can be dangerouse, and trust me, you dont want to anger me with broken loyalty
